"I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
Je veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends"
~Lady GaGa (Bad Romance)

(Music Video) [link]

As odd as this sounds on the way to work I am picking up razorblades. I am going to remake the glasses you see in the opening of the music video. And I will use them in my upcoming photo shoot in the abandoned warehouse, whenever we put a final date on it. Finally ordered my stage blood so, maybe I can start taking in all the models that were kind enough to help me with my project. Still waiting for my package from China. Duh Chelsea lol. -taps her fingers on her cold desk-

I have five pages in my notebook of calculations which determine when certain events can happen, days of pay, dates of billing, fixed budgets, traveling, when I can purchase my new camera, in which I think my friend Ren is going to help me with just need the $8oo-9oo. Which honestly shouldn't be too hard in January. When I go out to Las Vegas I get a new tattoo, in which the design no one has seen, and I might possibly get my forbidden fruit touched up sees how some people who will remain nameless don't know what the hell cell shading is.

Basic school plan has been set, I am taking accounting classes online, and I aim for a bachelor degree in such. When my son starts going to Kinder garden I will be taking up cosmetology. Believe me my heart is set on these two, I even have both of the schools picked out. I was always told I needed a plan, in this one, I even have something to fall back on. I start paying into my tuition for accounting soon.

Finally got medical insurance and dental. But I have different dental insurances for myself. As my son has only one. I have a lot of work that needs to be done, I am talking thousands of dollars here, while my son just needed something for a checkup. I start getting dental work done in January in which I will have an appointment just about every week of the month until I can finally eat again. Aside of clowns my other biggest fear is the dentist.

Something about the room that makes me feel unconformable. The drill drives me insane. And as weird as this sounds, I hate having metal in my mouth. I am getting all of my fillings replaced with tooth coloured fillings. January is going to be a month of pain until I turn 21.

I keep a ledger. -claps- I have to open a second bank account, and I am starting a savings account. Plus I am starting a savings account for Axel as well. After December the money is going to be splitting in all different directions.

So when I say I have crazy months I guess when the new year hits, that's will be the craziest month of the whole year of 2o1o. Given that is a prediction completely. Things are looking up again, but the downs will always be there. The best part is when I pull through to say "I made it again". Put down the cigarettes again, which is usually when my friends finally give a sigh of relief and stress less.

Which for some odd reason that reminded me of Valentine's Day. In which for once in my lifetime it will become "single awareness day". Everyone says that it is a pointless holiday, -waves her hands at those people- as if, I like baking heart shaped things. I like designing bouquets, and baskets. Best part is I get to make chocolate lollipops.

Like come on being single ain't gonna take that away from me. You bunch of killjoys I swear. If you know Chelsea, then you will know that is her favorite holiday, and why you may ask? Hearts, stuffed animals, roses, CHOCOLATE, and it's a day to recognize the people you love. In which I really think there should be more days like this. More recognition. Some people need it. And with the way things are going now-a-days I think we get too carried away with ourselves to thank and recognize the people around us.

I have a lot of people to be thankful for. A lot of shirts stained with tears that I need to replace.

Another thing on my list, the Christmas party at work. >.< IN which I completely keep forgetting which is an absolute no no sees how I am buying all the decorations and planning the food, raffle prizes, and taking the photos for our album. This is isn't sarcasm I like being the secretary at home for my boss, and I like it when I am given an event to do anything I want with. Not my money but Taco Bells money. Thank the lord I am recognized as creative and it gets me fun jobs like this.

I also get to bu/make the cakes for everyone's birthday. Due to popular demand. I was picked for this job as well. I have a special calendar on my wall for employees birthdays. And well looking at January once again, that is the most popular birthday month. >.< -shakes her fist that everyone whom decided to reproduce in May-

Anyways there is your update, I am off to make breakfast. Toodles.